詩人濟慈一生短暫而璀璨。他23歲時遇到鄰家女孩芬妮·勃勞恩(Fanny Brawne),兩人墜入愛河。悲哀的是,當時濟慈已患有肺結核,健康每況愈下,兩人訂了婚卻沒等到結婚。
1821年,25歲的濟慈為避嚴寒而奔赴義大利,最終客死他鄉。
在這段甜蜜而苦澀的愛情中,濟慈留下了整整三打情書。他下葬時,胸口還放著一封寫給芬妮的信。芬妮一生都沒有取下與濟慈訂婚的戒指。
情書欣賞:
I cannot exist without you – I am forgetful of every thing but seeing you again – my life seems to stop there – I see no further. You have absorb』d me.
沒有你我無法存活。我忘卻了一切,只想著要與你再見。我的生命似乎就此終止,沒有更遠的未來。你佔據了我的一切。
I have a sensation at the present moment as though I were dissolving ….I have been astonished that men could die martyrs for religion – I have shudder』d at it – I shudder no more – I could be martyr』d for my religion – love is my religion – I could die for that – I could die for you. My creed is love and you are its only tenet – you have ravish』d me away by a power I cannot resist.
我有一種感覺,就在這一刻我似乎正在消融……我曾驚訝於有人會為宗教而犧牲,我曾一想到這就戰慄不已。現在我不再為此戰慄了。我也可以為我的宗教犧牲。愛就是我的宗教,我可以為它而死,我可以為你而死。我的信經就是愛,而你就是它唯一的信條。你用我無法抵抗的力量將我徹底摧毀。