得知自己中國新歌聲的海選沒有過的時候還是有點不開心的，畢竟眼看著Eason戰隊就在眼前，卻還是錯過了這個機會，遺憾，估計是一輩子了。
好久沒有分享英文歌了，畢竟我確實聽的很少。昨天朋友推薦了我一首，真的很好聽：Gnash---《I hate U, I love U》(Feat by Olivia O'Brien)
一首很傷感的歌曲，Youtube上超過兩億的點擊量，給予了無數已經快支離破碎的心最後一擊，很有感觸。
Gnash是男聲，Olivia O'Brien是女聲。說是Gnash的歌，但我反而覺得更像是Olivia O'Brien在傾訴那種又愛又恨的糾結情感。
Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too, and
I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this real out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I nevermind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If u wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night, I sing this song
I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
平穩的聲線貫穿了整首歌曲，沒有華麗的炫技，沒有緊湊的旋律，更沒有嘈雜的樂器。有的，只是簡簡單單的訴說，簡簡單單的傾訴。
"I hate You, I love You", 我討厭你，我喜歡你。因為喜歡你，喜歡上你喜歡的一切，喜歡你常聽的音樂，喜歡你愛看的電影，喜歡你喜愛的美食。因為討厭你，討厭與你一起時養成的習慣，討厭曾經一起走過的街道，討厭過去經歷的一切。
有些人，有些事，真的讓人又愛又恨。我們沒有選擇的餘地，只能逆來順受，只能永遠的被動接受，這就是人生的無奈吧，這也是愛情的悲哀吧。
只有愛之深，才有恨之切。若無法傾其所有，請不要欺騙傷害。獨善其身並不是貶義詞，只是對自己的一種保護罷了。
好久沒更新，抱歉了，等忙完了期末就會恢復正常。
願世界對我們溫柔以待。
Photo Credits: Gnash(instagram)