作者：伯蘭特·羅素作者｜題圖：雅典學院
三種單純然而極其強烈的激情支配著我的一生。那就是對於愛情的渴望，對於知識的追求，以及對於人類苦難痛徹肺腑的憐憫。這些激情猶如狂風，把我伸展到絕望邊緣的深深的苦海上東拋西擲，使我的生活沒有定向。我追求愛情，首先因為它叫我消魂。愛情使人消魂的魅力使我常常樂意為了幾小時這樣的快樂而犧牲生活中的其他一切。我追求愛情，又因為它減輕孤獨感－－那種一個顫抖的靈魂望著世界邊緣之外冰冷而無生命的無底深淵時所感到的可怕的孤獨。 我追求愛情，還因為愛的結合使我在一種神秘的縮影中提前看到了聖者和詩人曾經想像過的天堂。這就是我所追求的，儘管人的生活似乎還不配享有它，但它畢竟是我終於找到的東西。
我以同樣的熱情追求知識，我想理解人類的心靈，我想了解星辰為何燦爛，我還試圖弄懂畢達哥拉斯學說的力量，是這種力量使我在無常之上高踞主宰地位。我在這方面略有成就，但不多。
愛情和知識只要存在，總是向上導往天堂。但是，憐憫又總是把我帶回人間。痛苦的呼喊在我心中反響迴蕩，孩子們受饑荒煎熬，無辜者被壓迫者折磨，孤弱無助的老人在自己的兒子眼中變成可惡的累贅，以及世上觸目皆是的孤獨、貧困和痛苦－－這些都是對人類應該過的生活的嘲弄。我渴望能減少罪惡，可我做不到，於是我感到痛苦。
這就是我的一生。我覺得這一生是值得活的，如果真有可能再給我一次機會，我將欣然再重活—次。
Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind. These passions, like great winds, have blown me hither and thither, in a wayward course, over a great ocean of anguish, reaching to the very verge of despair.
I have sought love, first, because it brings ecstasy - ecstasy so great that I would often have sacrificed all the rest of life for a few hours of this joy. I have sought it, next, because it relieves loneliness--that terrible loneliness in which one shivering consciousness looks over the rim of the world into the cold unfathomable lifeless abyss. I have sought it finally, because in the union of love I have seen, in a mystic miniature, the prefiguring vision of the heaven that saints and poets have imagined. This is what I sought, and though it might seem too good for human life, this is what--at last--I have found.
With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of men. I have wished to know why the stars shine. And I have tried to apprehend the Pythagorean power by which number holds sway above the flux. A little of this, but not much, I have achieved.
Love and knowledge, so far as they were possible, led upward toward the heavens. But always pity brought me back to earth. Echoes of cries of pain reverberate in my heart. Children in famine, victims tortured by oppressors, helpless old people a burden to their sons, and the whole world of loneliness, poverty, and pain make a mockery of what human life should be. I long to alleviate this evil, but I cannot, and I too suffer.
This has been my life. I have found it worth living, and would gladly live it again if the chance were offered me.
伯特蘭·羅素（Bertrand Russell，1872—1970）是二十世紀英國哲學家、數學家、邏輯學家、歷史學家，無神論或者不可知論者，也是上世紀西方最著名、影響最大的學者和和平主義社會活動家之一，羅素也被認為是與弗雷格、維根斯坦和懷特海一同創建了分析哲學。他與懷特海合著的《數學原理》對邏輯學、數學、集合論、語言學和分析哲學有著巨大影響。1950年，羅素獲得諾貝爾文學獎，以表彰其「多樣且重要的作品，持續不斷的追求人道主義理想和思想自由」。被認為是與弗雷格、維根斯坦和懷特海一同創建了分析哲學。伯特蘭·羅素與懷特海合著的《數學原理》對邏輯學、數學、集合論、語言學和分析哲學有著巨大影響。1950年，伯特蘭·羅素獲得諾貝爾文學獎，以表彰其「多樣且重要的作品，持續不斷的追求人道主義理想和思想自由」。他的代表作品有《幸福之路》、《西方哲學史》、《數學原理》、《物的分析》等。微信號：penetratingview
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